not a very pleasant day today==;

[dzioo]

where should I start?? right. being a senior sucks. totally. especially when it comes to making importand decisions==;

due to end of june we need to choose lecturers that'll help us prepare our diploma projects. simple. not really. there are many many fantastic lecturers and many many horrible ones. I'd like to work with one from the first group of course. problem is, I'm not that confident. I see myself and my works as average, maybe even lower. and it's visible. that project is really important, my last one as a student, and it'd be nice if it was really well done. unfortunately, I need someone who can help me ALOT. amount of knowledge I have is not that impressive (blame the school, they do little to make studying there pleasant and entertaining), so it'd be nice to have someone experienced

today one of the most popular and the best lecturers held an interview. we were to bring our portfolios and have a little talk with her. I was there too. but there were many others too, probably with better projects and more interesting ideas for diploma. and I feel like shit. I mean, it matters to me, and I'd love to work with her. however. I have a feeling that it'll be impossible. and then I'll have to look for someone else. and they may have their lists already closed. and then I'll have no choice as to work with someone that a) does not have enough knowledge, b) ignores students and doesn't show up when he's supposed to. that'd mean me failing my final project:/ that'd suck don't you think?
sorry, I needed to write it somewhere, just to get rid of that horrible feeling inside me

other than that, I'm in the mood of making icons. 4 more are in my profile^^ I already have ouran (3 pieces), fma (1), bleach (1), escaflowne (2), rahxephon (1), the pillows (1) and today's baby is hei from darker than black^^ me is soooo proud^^

in the future you'd be fear me I'm affraid. I'm watching hayate. and now I'm planning to download dai mahou touge. fear my beat up brain XDDDD

Comments

[sharyamato.livejournal.com]

Art sadly is one of the biggest competition fests out there! It's a hard field to stay in and get noticed.
But, don't give up! Try your hardest, and you'll never know if you'd get the diploma until you've tried.

[duokai.livejournal.com]

I know the feeling, sort of at least. ^^; And it sucks. But you should believe in yourself (yeah, I know, it's me saying it ^^;). And I have a really hard time believing that you're really "just average".

Sometimes it's good to beat up your brain, you know. Makes it think less bad thoughts ^^

[knp01.livejournal.com]

jak Ty w śiebie nie uwierzysz, to nikt w Ciebie nie uwierzy. Nikt się nie pozna na Twoim talencie, ani na zdolnościach, które w Tobie siedzą, jeżeli nie pozwalasz ich zauważyć. Nie porównuj się do innych na zasadzie jestem od nich gorsza, tylko patrz, czego możesz się od nich nauczyć i ucz się tego.

Nie zakładaj też od razu, że trafisz na jakiegoś (&*^&^%$$# o właśnie takiego, bo się dołujesz, mój kochany emosiu <3 Możesz trafisz na kogoś lepszego? ( a tak swoja droga, to o kim mowa?)

I wiesz co ci powiem? Ja o sobie też myślę w kategoriach: architekt: do kitu. W Polsce nie sprawiało mi to totalnie przyjemności, na pierwszym semestrze też nie bardzo, barira językowa, ale teraz czuję, że to jest okej i nawet ja k nei będę geniuszem, to zawsze mogę być dobrym architektem, jesli tylko pozwolę, żeby mi to sprwiaało przyjemność. A wiem ,że bardzo często nie sprawia.

W każdym razie, uśmiechnij się, słońce, szkoda życia, żeby się martwić<3